I Need A Doctor

[Skylar Gray] 
I'm about to lose my mind 
You've been gone for so long 
I'm running out of time 
I need a doctor 
Call me a doctor 
I need a doctor, doctor 
To bring me back to life 

[Eminem]
I told the world, one day I would pay it back.
Say it on tape and lay it, record it, so that one day I could play it back.
But I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that.
Doubt startin' to creep in, everyday it's just so grey and black.
Hope, I just need a ray of that
'Cause no one sees my vision
When I play it for 'em, they just say it's whack.
But they don't know what dope is.
And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this.
All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest.
You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you.
But for the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do.
But it just dawned on me; you lost a son. Demon's fightin' you, it's dark.
Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you.
I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue.
'Cause me and you, were like a crew. I was like your sidekick.
You gon' either wanna fight when I get off this f-cking mic,
Or you gon' hug me. But I'm out of options, there's nothing else I can do cause... 

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle.
You come to me with ideas.
You say they're just pieces, so I'm puzzled.
'Cause the sh-t I hear is crazy,
But you're either getting lazy, or you don't believe in you no more.
Seems like your own opinions, not one you can form.
Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself,
Second guessing, and it's almost like your begging for my help.
Like, I'm YOUR leader.
You're supposed to f-cking be MY mentor.
I can endure no more!
I demand you remember who you are!
It was YOU, who believed in me,
When everyone was telling you, don't sign me.
Everyone at the f-cking label, lets tell the truth. 

You risked your career for me, I know it as well as you.
Nobody wanted to f-ck with the white boy...
Dre, I'm crying in this booth.
You saved my life, now maybe it's my time to save yours.
But I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more.
But I ain't giving up faith, and you ain't giving up on me.
Get up Dre! I'm dying, I need you, come back for f-ck's sake cause

[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
But I still remember the sh-t like it was just yesterday though
You walked in, yellow jump suit
Whole room, cracked jokes
Once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
Went through friends, some of them I put on
But they just left, they said they was riding to the death
But where the f-ck are they now
Now that I need them, I don't see none of them
All I see is Slim
F-ck all you fairweather friends
All I need is him
F-cking backstabbers
When the chips were down, you just laughed at us
Now you bout to feel the f-cking wrath of aftermath, faggots
You gon' see us in our lab jackets and ask where the f-ck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
Little cracker jack beat making wack math,
Backwards producers, I'm back bastards
One more CD and then I'm packing up my bags and as I leave
And I guarantee they'll scream, Dre don't leave us like that man cause... 

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should be the best song of the year...

Logo Program Usulluddin

Logo asal Usulluddin

Logo asal Usulluddin di ubahsuai pada tahun 2010

sebenarnye logo ni sepatutnye di post awal lagi sebelum post pasal Ahmad Malay Barber.. kebetulan lepas saja buat blog ni, boleh pula terasa nak mengemas balik folder-folder dalam PC ni, so terjumpa la semua benda editing zaman tengah belajar dekat kolej..

semase aku lihat logo ni lama-lama aku rasa macam pelik.. lepas tu Abu cerita la pasal orang yg buat logo asal ni, orang nya  Die Hard Fans Arsenal Football Club... so dalam diam aku tegelak dan terus sketch out demo logo yang aku rasa-rasa "OK" untuk program ni..

*: masa ni baru nak kenal dunia editing, macam-macam kantoi

hanya mampu.. tetapi tidak terdaya lagi

elok dari zaman kecik-kecik dulu, zaman sekolah rendah dan sekolah menengah sampai la sekarang nih.. semua nye bende negative je.., selama aku hidup memang macam-macam aku tempuhi temasuk lah cabaran dan dugaan kehidupan susah.. selalu nye aku melarikan diri tanpe penyelesaian.., tapi kali nih aku mahu delete semua itu.. aku nak pulih kan segala bende yang memburukan hati dan pemikiran serta pesekitaran aku..

aku tidak sangka semua yang telah aku tempuhi selama ni seringkali muncul dengan tiba-tiba dan selalu menghantui/ menjejaskan aku.. disebabkan itu, aku jadi nervous dan terumbang-ambing.. orang-orang di sekeliling aku terase dengan perwatakan dan aura yang aku bawa.., secara tidak langsung benda lain pula yang jadi..

aku sudah bersedia.. dengan apa cara sekali pun aku mahu bende ni hilang dan pergi jauh dari ingatan aku...
mehilang kan diri dari semua orang merupakan salah satu cara untuk aku bersih kan otak aku dari bende negative.. bukan niat untuk abai kan pekara-pekara yang penting dari aku tapi aku terpaksa...

walaupun ni telah ubah macam-macam benda tehadap aku.., elok dari persahabatan, tapi tolong la ingat yang aku tidak pernah benci kan siapa-siapa pun.., biar la duduk seorang diri kat maple ke, keluar jejalan seorang diri, tengok wayang ke.. ni sume bukan untuk mintak simpati ke,, aku just nk tenang kan fikiran aku...

kadang-kadang aku pergi mana-mana pon aku duduk diam je.., macam-macam aku dengar cerita orang dari yang baik mahu pon yg buruk-buruk belaka., sampai kan aku rase macam teruk nye keadaan sekarang sampai jadi macam ni..

orang kata aku tak ada pendirian sendiri, mudah ikut kata-kata dan macam-macam.. bagi aku semua orang sama je.. kekuatan mental dan kesungguhan saja yang jadi ukuran..

pegangan aku "if kita rase kita ni susah, ada orang lagi susah dari kita", "if kita rase kita ni hodoh dari apa segi pon, ada orang lagi hodoh dari kita", "if kita rase kita kaya, de orang lagi kaya"

NOKTAH.

Design Kedai Nasi Lemak Kukus KRS

haaa~ sekarang member aku pon sudah bukak kedai makan laa.. dulu bukan main jahat lagih.. suke duduk buli2 orang, serong ramai2 pegi beli rokok.. orang duduk sibuk kat kelas die sibuk kat kanteen melahap kalah kan pengetue ahaha.. sekarang nah haa time ko pulak jadi touke kedai ahaha... esok2 ko pulak buncit macam pengetue ;D...

apape pon acai ko jangan malas dan suke buli pekerja2 ko tuh yee.. ahaha.. lau boleh payong la aku makan ehehe ;D..
sume nye diatas gurau2 belake ye acai..


lokasi KRS RESTAURANT: 
Ampangan, Sebelah 7E/ depan Giant Ampangan
Seremban, Negeri Sembilan


kepada siapa2 yang nak try makan nasi lemak kukus nih dtg la.. alang2 boleh jugak rase lauk2 orang Somban..

HOBIN JANG HOBIN~

Design Ahmad Malay Barber Shop

waaw~ Ahmad Malay Barber Shop from Singaporean!
memang tekejut la bile tibe2 je mmber aku mntk tlg aku tuk design kdai barber nih kn...
xsangke mse da tibe utk uji kpakaran design aku...
btw TQ to Allah sgt coz mybe Die nk bg aku rezeki dr buang mse duk melopong je stp ari kt umah nih kn.., dgn menolong member aku dpt gak la tmbah kn ilmu..

tp task ni aku struggle gak.., plus rse agak berat la coz xpnah handle tp aku kne r "live with it"... da name pon dak iT multimedia kn.. so mesti hebat pasal design-design ni kn ahaha
artwork aku tuk design Barber Shop nih agak kelam kabut n payah laa gak.., coz aku pon tak jumpe lagi sample pasal kedai gunting ni..
sometimes mood pn down smpai hampir mati akal nk design camane..,tapi kalau duduk pikir-pikir balik kan  mane ade kejayaan datang golek2

btw tq to member aku n hope that ko like ngan hasil design aku ye.. ;D
TQ Aizham~

Banner Ahmad Malay Barber

 Bunting Ahmad Malay Barber Shop

Design Bunting 2ft x 4ft

Design Pemplet Black&White

hyeep blogers~ ;D

oyaaa~ ahaha sbenye ku pon xth nk ckp ape nih...
heylo to sume org bloger lme2 tu... ;D., jgn buli aku yg br join blog nih aaha..
xcually b4 ni memang ade blog..,
tp ntah pesal otak xleh nk recall psswrd n email so tepakse la wat br...
n bile mse belalu tgk2 mmber2 kolej n fb byk active blog nih so rase teringin lak nk 4low... org kate "baru nk up" la kate kn ehehe..

n smetime mmber ckp spread la ilmu2 ke kn kt blog tu leh share2 ngan org... so skang br la terlintas nk wat..
pape pn tq la to member2 yg bg advise yee~
rse2 nye xde bnde special sgt nk borak pon...
n hope dpt bekenalan2 ngan korg sume d'sni...

chaaw~